LOVE IS EVERYWHERE BUT NOWHERE!!

CRAVINGS OR CARVINGS!!! Maybe the pain I carry will always CARVE  how I am gonna see all those lucky stars but lucky to someone else sight 'cause my star comes in a White car smelling like Davidoff coolwater!! hahaha... Maybe  I CRAVE  his voice and touch but one thing I can't forget are his EYES holding so much love but not for me! Maybe I am the WRITER and he is the MUSE but every slide in my life has a watermark named after YOU!!! MAYBE I am the ANTAGONIST of our story and HE is the PROTAGONIST but enemies to lovers is my favourite genre so is  "US" ! The IDEA of Someone like you is already Heart-rending 'cause "YOU" is the only pronoun I need in my books!!! MAYBE he told me that FALSE HOPE IS LIKE A POISON but boy ohh boy, I'll take this a thousands times over just to witness your existence!!! MAYBE this is the first and last time I'll get to know how REAL MY LOVE can be, Although I am scared but never giving up on "US"!! Maybe th...

BITTER SWEET!!! He said that he don't want to hurt  me but so foolish of him to think that staying away from him will be better indeed it's a punishment I  didn't ask for! Maybe I am the the bitter part of our lives and he is the sweet one but this BITTER SWEET  combo is not the taste palette people like to develop so did he!  Maybe we weren't THE ONES  that i wished and hoped but all my hope and desires are all dust now so  it was kind of brave me to think that maybe I can be the GIRLY GIRL  for once in my lifetime ! hahahaha.... Maybe my eyes are swollen with the tears but in the end I am his AND I still live in the fantasy of hope to reunite once again if universe agrees! Maybe he set my heart on fire everytime I saw him but the same fire is giving me heartache as well! Maybe I made the decision of not meeting him again but I  live on hope and the HOPE I hoped is HIM... I don't know how long is this gonna take for me to loose that hope but I wi...

THE NEXT TIME...! The next I'll fall in love I'll fall it for the last time  The next time I'll fall  I'll fall for him to introduce him to my parents The next time I'll fall for him to spent the rest of life with no doubts The next will the next when I can fall for him harder than ever thought and realising it's last time  The next fall in love that's gonna make me cry for him The next fall in love will tear me apart with just the thought of seperation The next fall in love will gonna be the father of my children  The next I'll fall in love it's ride and die love The next time I'll ever going to cry for a male is knowing that i don't want anything other than this man The next fall in love is to shout out loud my  love for him every moment of is being together Until then no more falling for anyone no more trusting someone and no more crying over a shitty ass person who doesn't know what he wants from life . That's it THAT'S IT FOR...

is it just love or SUFFERINGS? BEING  A LOVER GIRL IS NOT FOR THE WEAK ‘CAUSE NOBODY UNDERSTANDS THE DEPTH OF  YOUR LOVE BUT UNDERESTIMATS THE LEVEL OF YOUR DETACHMENT, IT’S A HABIT OR I WOULD DAY A SOUL TRYING TO SURVIVE THIS IRONIC WORLD FILLED WITH PARADOX!! HONESTLY, I COULD NEVER BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN IT IN THE WORDS; HOW LOVING TWO PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME WILL TORE YOU APART AT THE POINT THAT YOU START TO LOSE HOPE AND STOP LOVING THE WORLD AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME. PEOPLE THINK THAT HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? HOW COULD YOU LOVE TWO PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME? LIKE ARE YOU EVEN SANE? ARE YYYOU NOTT GOINGGG MADDD? YOU CAN’T LOVE TWO PEOPLE!!!??? SUCH BOLD STATEMENTS TO BE LISTENED BY SUCH A FRAGILE HEART , BUT GOD OHH GOD! YOU COULD NEVER REACH THE LEVEL OF LOVE I DO! I KNOW I KNOW I SOUND CRAZY BUT ISN’T IT WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT! ABOUT BEING CRAZY! ABOUT BEING MADLY IN LOVE! ABOUT BEING INSANE! ABOUT BEING NON-EXISTENTIAL BUT STILL BREATHING! LOOSING THE HOPE TO LOVE SOMEON...